The poet Machado said that we all have four things that can bring us down when out at sea: rudder, anchor, oars, and fear. I notice my own tools often take me into striving and exhaustion, and fear....terrible. Who would I, or you, BE, without these fearful things? At peace.
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The other day I noticed the urge to suddenly get rid of an old computer taking up space. I felt anger at the very presence of this clunky thing. then I stopped, and caught myself. I realized, I was covering grief and sadness. The computer was bought when I was happily married, with cute small children, and a big beautiful house. It used to sit in an incredible spot near a window with a bamboo forest outside. Who would I be without the anger? Whole hearted. Grateful.
So many thoughts in the mind about what we should be, and aren't yet, and what we shouldn't be that we are. What if you're not the one in charge? Wow, what a fun and strange (and lighter) idea to consider!
I have spent years trying to be a better person. Good lord! Recently I was reminded of how much I felt this way when I was a teenager, and trying to understand my Christian upbringing. Everyone can question the thought that there is something wrong with you, and you need improvement. You can practice imagining being OK with who you are right now, no need for anything different.