Death is maybe the most frightening thing for many humans to contemplate. Loss, separation, fear. It's like death means....something horrible, and we haven't questioned if this is even true. Is there life beyond death? Who wants to know?
Anyone can question their thinking that a situation is not providing enough "x" whatever it is: money, food, time, security, love, happiness. Wow, what a difficult and common thought....but you can question it. I share how I did it today, with my thought "there aren't enough participants coming to my retreat!" LOL. There are, it turns out.
There's a voice of addiction you may be listening to that's ultimately got nothing to do with being addicted to a substance or activity. It's the compulsion to have the story "there is something wrong with this moment". You've got the voice that is NOT addicted, too. Can you hear it, even in the midst of total discouragement?